notes 58

Have you ever tried asking yourself..
Kung ano bang meron sa kanya, kung ba’t ka niya napapangiti?
Sometimes it’s unexplainable. You just suddenly feel it. Dumadating nalang yung isang araw na marerealize mong, ‘Gusto ko na pala siya.’

Strangers to friends, friends into lovers, and either lovers back to strangers or lovers forever.

It’s a cycle. A process wherein a person learns to like someone’s imperfections =)

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Eto lang naman talaga ang kailangan ng babae kapag nakakaramdam sila ng takot; takot na baka mawala sa kanila yung taong mahal nila. Yung ipaalala sa kanya yung halaga niya. Na siya lang ang gusto mo at wala nang iba.

Siguro dahil sa kakulangan ng tiwala, o kaya ng self-confidence..

Upon hearing those words from the one she loves, a girl would finally be at ease. It makes us feel much better. :)

notes 56

Ang sarap siguro sa pakiramdam nun ‘no?

Yung kasama mo yung taong mahal mo. Nayayakap mo. Pinoprotektahan ka. Inaalagaan. Siguro that’s the time you’ll feel contentment in life. Pero minsan ba naisip mo, “Nasan na kaya siya?” That someone who’d finally realize your worth. Someone who would truly stay by your side. Yung hinding hindi ka magagawang iwan.

We’re still young anyway. Marami pa tayong dapat munang matutunan bago makita yung taong para talaga sa atin.

notes 55

Ang pinakakinatatakutan kong mangyari sa isang relasyon, ay yung biglaang pagbabago nito.

Yung tipong sinanay ka sa ganitong ugali…
na nasa tabi mo lang siya palagi, na ang sweet sweet niya sayo, siya ang takbuhan mo, palagi mong kausap o kachat.
Tapos biglang magbabago.
Biglang mawawala yung samahan niyo; na parang mag-aact siya as if hindi ka niya kilala.
Bakit?
Ayan na ang simula. Maguguluhan ka na’t lahat.
Ano bang nagawa mo para maging ganun siya sa’yo?
Bakit hindi ka na niya kinakausap?
Nagsawa na nga ba siya?
Yung tingin mong ginawa mo na ang lahat, pero para sa kanya… hindi pa pala yun sapat.

Bakit?

notes 54

there's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but its not giving up. its realizing you dont need certain people and their crap..

Married or not you should read this…
“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband…. The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

if tears couldbuild stairway and memories a lane.. i'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again

notes 53

The moment when you see your ex again after so much time and it brings back too many memories..

Noon ako ang tinitiis mo
ngaung namanhid na ko sa pagbabalewala mo
at ngaung kya ko na ding tiisin ka saka ka hahabol?
galing talaga ng tadhana fair na fair :)

notes 52

May mga bagay na gawin mo man ang lahat..
hindi sapat..
ibigay mo man ang lahat..
hindi sapat..
dahil hindi lahat ng bagay ay hindi nakalaan para sayo..

notes 51

"MAHAL KO EH."
Yan ang parating excuse/dahilan ng mga taong nagpapakatanga sa so called ‘love’ na yan. Lahat nga naman kasi tayo, nagpapakatanga. Pero yung iba lang kasi sumusobra na, yung tipong kailangan nang iumpog sa pader para matauhan na.

Halimbawa na mga tanong na yan ang parating sagot:

“Niloko ka na pala eh bat mo pa binalikan?” = “Mahal ko eh.”
“Kung nasasakal ka na pala eh bat mo hinahayaan?” = “Mahal ko eh.”
“Eh bakit mo kasi pinamihasa na ganyan ang turing sayo?” = “Mahal ko eh.”
“Bat mo pa binigyan ng chance kung alam mong uulitin din?” = “Mahal ko eh.”
“Mukha ka nang tanga, mahal mo pa rin?” = “EH SA MAHAL KO EH, NANGENGELAM KA!” yan na ang sagot kapag nasusot na sa mga tanong.
Oo, mahal mo nga siya, pero nakalimutan mo na din ba ang sarili mo? Alam mo na kasing may mali, sige pa din. Oh sino ngayon ang nasasaktan? Tapos ganyan pa ang mga dahilan. Hindi kasi lagi yan valid na reason.

MAHAL KO EH NG MAHAL KO EH KA JAN, oh sige nganga ka ngayon. Minsan kailangan mo din magising sa katotohanan na kahit mahal mo siya eh, hindi na tama.

WALANG KWENTA

i have come to realize..everyone can be ur friend.. but not everyone can understand u.. life is all about using and gaining.. diba.. ang buhay pala, kahit ano pa ang gawin mong pagkakabait at pakikisama.. kung my mas malamang p sa pera.. talo ka talaga.. di lang sa lalaki kundi pati sa pagkakaibigan din pala..!! sometimes.. im so confused.. ilang beses na ginawa sakin yan ng mga naging kaibigan ko.. pero d parin ako nadadala..siguro kc KAHIT KILANN DI AKO NAGING GANYAN.. OO SINUNGALING AKO NAPAKASINUNGALING KO.. PERO DI AKO HUMANTONG SA POINT NA PATI SARILI KO NILULUKO CU NAH... MASAMA BA UNG magtiwala sa iban g tao.. liban sa pamilya ko?!?!?! from now on... lahat ng kaibigan ko.. pakikipagGamitan nalang pala to

i have my own life now.. and i have my new friends.. which a can call.. my new relatives.. pro..what can i do.. im n a world full of pretension and i dont know what else can i say.. i maybe drunk..but u know me sweetttooth..i gots lots friends diba.. girls or boyz.. tel you nezt time.. kc mgtatagal tau eh.... msasama pakriramdam ko eh.. lge naman diba..lagi naman ako BH DIBA..next time kwento ko sau ng boo..

i miss bl0ogging syeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

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new life

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MY SADDEST LOVER



naranasan mo na ba makipag-break?

masaktan ng todo?

kc kung.. OO

MAIINTINDIHAN MO KO

malaman mong d ka nya gusto at ginawa lang na rebound?

THE HELL!!

ang tagal kung iniisip ung sasabihin ko sakanya

pero anong napala ko? dba wala?

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I LOVE YOU..at alam kung nasisiyahan kang saktan ako

IS THAT YOUR WAY OF SHOWING YOUR LOVE?
the heck is that love?!

STOP THINKING OF THAT STUPID GUY